Organise

Sometimes it feels like my life is a mess. When I look at it globally, it seems so well organised: I go to school, monday till friday, and in the afternoon I go home and have some time for other things. Working on saturday, going to church on sunday. That doesn't sound messy, does it? But all the little details I didn't add can really make it a badly arranged eh... something. Next to that, there is the fact that I am very good at arranging things badly...

Well, now my examperiod is over, I looking at five workpieces I have to finish very soon. I'm studying very hard for a practical music exam, but that's the fun part of it. I also have to write some papers for maths and dutch and I have to analyse a musical piece, which I find very difficult...

Other details: birthdays, baby-sitting (yes, I need money), playing saxophone in an orchestra, cleaning up my room (I'm really traumatised by that), getting saxophone lessons, MEETING FRIENDS!! It's so stupid when I see that there are just a few little things in my life that keep my busy and that already can make me go nuts, because I think I am too busy... Last year I was busy. I was doing so much next to my school and also at school, that I didn't have any spare time left. But now, I do have spare time left, but when I have it, I am so happy, that I just don't do anything, so I am not using it very well. Instead of making homework or answering mail or something like that, I just go and watch tv or surf on the internet. And I feel so stupid at the end of the day, when I look back at what I've done that evening (nothing).

And of course, it's not wrong to relax and watch tv, but not too much. I'd better take some time with God!! But yeah... I am trying really hard to change this bad habit. I am praying, but I also know that nothing is gonna happen if I don't start trying to change my life. It hás to change. And it wíl change!! Because with God on my side, I am strong!! Hihi

School is almost starting again. Sorry I am talking so much about it... Next time I will try to be a little bit more interesting, hehe