Memories

It's so strange, how certain places, or objects, or smells, or sounds can make you remember a moment back in time.

My memory isn't that good. It's quite bad actually. So trying to remember the easiest things is still a difficult point for me. And I do remember important things that happened in my life and the general story of my life, but most of the time it's just a big mass of vague information about something that happened weeks or months or years ago.
Now the strange thing here, is that sometimes I see or hear or smell something that makes the memory of a certain moment come back and not only the facts about what happened then, but more the feeling at that moment. In some situations that is a good thing and I can enjoy remembering things. But in other situations it's just difficult, because I can also be reminded of things that I tried to forget or that don't effect me in a positive way.

Today I had something like this with mixed feelings. I was in a christian bookstory looking for a new bible and then all of a sudden I saw this bible that I knew and reminded me of a friend of mine. And it just shocked me! I'd never had this kind of reaction before, but I really was like "oh!!!" when I saw that bible and it felt like a tidal wave of emotions came over me. I still feel like that a few hours later.
The reason why I'm having mixed feelings is because it's a good memory, but it also effects me in a sad way, because of the fact that it's "just" a memory...
Well, at this point you might think that this is all very vague and unclear and not leading to anything, but believe me, I understand very little of it myself!

Lord, I pray for Your help in this situation. I don't want to be distracted by memories and pay more attention to them than to You. I lay these memories before Your throne Lord and I trust You in taking care of them. Thank You Jesus for comforting me when I need You, thank You for giving me the love I need. Thank you for giving me the strength to concentrate on more important things and most of all: You! God, I'm so glad that You are in my life and that You are not someone from my memories, but that You last forever! I praise Your name and I ask you for Your wisdom in my life, so that I will know how to handle certain situations. Because You know everything Jesus and You are the only One who can help me! I pray this in Jesus' name. Amen.