Happy Happy Joy Joy

Amsterdam is a great city. The lecture I went to was very interesting too. But still, I am not sure about the study, *sigh*... Well, the only thing I can do now is wait and keep my eyes and ears open in focussing on God, so I'll just keep doing that.

Within a little more than a week I will have the Cleansing Stream weekend. I try to keep my eyes on Jesus even more, because I notice all different things coming at me distracting me from what's really important. Having spiritual warfare a few weeks before this weekend was kinda predictable, but it's still there! All of a sudden I've got money issues, moodswings and my weaknesses are definitely more present. It's a struggle with myself mostly... And I could use prayer...

I would love to say I'm doing perfectly fine, but the fact is that my mind is so busy and full of thoughts that I'm am literally getting tired of it. Weird enough, I still feel God's joy in me even more these past days. So although there are things that make me feel miserable, God still shows He is with me, so I really thank Him for that. On the other hand, hardly anyone is able to see that I'm struggling with some things, because I look so happy! Stupid huh?

Well, I just need some time with God now. I've spend more than enough time behind my computer and doing other things today. I wanna pray and then go to bed, hmmmm, sleeping... zzz... Thank You God, Amen.